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at least everyone was nice
Jun. 21st, 2008 10:47 pmI feel like I should document the events of this past Friday. It is a day that I would love to forget..and yet the kindness of everyone I met that day makes it one I always would like to remember.
Because of my current financial situation I was given the address of a Free clinic. Lets face it..I've pretended that paying bills and everything is not an issue, I may have stretched the truth slightly. I'm not in the poor house obviously but shelling out several hundred dollars for a doctors visit and medication just is not possible for me right now.
I better cut this..cuase it will be long. ( Day of Discovery )
So that was my Friday. Today we went in hunt of this mysterious specialist Dr Peacock. Well as amused as I was by the name..that amusement soon faded when we discovered the name of the clinic. Wake Forest Cancer Clinic.
I don't know what I thought..I had put myself into this illusion that the specialist of a gastro-intestinal specialist or something. I was worried about what I would have to do to get rid of it and knew surgery might be a possibility...but seeing those words destroyed all illusions.
I know it could be nothing. I know that just because I'm going to see a Cancer specialist doesn't mean I have cancer. But it definetly made my breath catch in my throat for a few moments. And my thoughts were of..there goes all hopes of a new job. How would I explain that I wouldn't be able to start work yet because I have to have surgery? Doesn't exactly make me look like the most desireable of candidates.
Monday...we'll know it all on monday. We'll know if my interview on Wed will still happen. We'll know what I have to do to make the pain go away. Monday I'll finally have answers.
Because of my current financial situation I was given the address of a Free clinic. Lets face it..I've pretended that paying bills and everything is not an issue, I may have stretched the truth slightly. I'm not in the poor house obviously but shelling out several hundred dollars for a doctors visit and medication just is not possible for me right now.
I better cut this..cuase it will be long. ( Day of Discovery )
So that was my Friday. Today we went in hunt of this mysterious specialist Dr Peacock. Well as amused as I was by the name..that amusement soon faded when we discovered the name of the clinic. Wake Forest Cancer Clinic.
I don't know what I thought..I had put myself into this illusion that the specialist of a gastro-intestinal specialist or something. I was worried about what I would have to do to get rid of it and knew surgery might be a possibility...but seeing those words destroyed all illusions.
I know it could be nothing. I know that just because I'm going to see a Cancer specialist doesn't mean I have cancer. But it definetly made my breath catch in my throat for a few moments. And my thoughts were of..there goes all hopes of a new job. How would I explain that I wouldn't be able to start work yet because I have to have surgery? Doesn't exactly make me look like the most desireable of candidates.
Monday...we'll know it all on monday. We'll know if my interview on Wed will still happen. We'll know what I have to do to make the pain go away. Monday I'll finally have answers.
