ever closer

I'm going to try to be more upbeat for this post since my last was a bit of a downer...but today really wasn't the kind of day to lift my spirits. everything I tough turns to ruin. But thank you to those that commented. I don't know that I really have depression its just when there are no answers and I can't afford to go and actually get any to ease my head..sometimes you just latch onto something to make it make sence even just the slighest bit. I have thought my back issues were all in my head though, for quite a while now and maybe it is..maybe it isn't...until I get a job that provides life insurance I may never know. Because there is another kicker. If I go to the doctor and they diagnose me with something, and then I get insurance within the next few months...they won't pay for certain things because I would have a "Pre-existing condition" and there are limitations on what they can do. Trust me, I went through 4 months of bickering with these people while they checked to make sure my Ovarian Cysts weren't a "Pre-existing Condition" that I had checked out before cause it if was then they weren't paying for the ultrasound. This is why insurance companies are just money grubbing loads of shit sometimes.

Gah..ranting..sorry..have to stop that. This day must end...

On an up note though I did ride. It was cold and windy and no one came outside to watch...but I did it anyway. And it was my choice.

( evershrinking list of doom )

And now I have managed to get a few more Japan pictures to upload.

( More toilets?? )