Phoenix Day 5

[tohma2004]

Rode Phoeonix today. Uneventful which is very good.

Watched anime today. Mostly Kyou Kara Maou and Bleach.

Kyou Kara Maou: Is it bad that I want to cosplay like 3 of the characters? If I did Yozak or Murata no one would know who I was unless I was with everyone else though. I would just be..random redhead or random schoolboy XD But Gunter...I'd be pretty safe. Poor Gunter ^_^ Although him being a model seems very appropriate XD

Bleach. Shuuhei is hot. That is all.


I won't know about the Roanoke store until probably a week or two from now. I might also be going to the Raleigh store to be acting STL for a time. looks like the next few months will be busy and eventful. Kinda scary actually.

There are good and bad points to this whole thing...If i get it...its scary..

Good points to having own store in Roanoke:
-Is MY store to run as I see fit
-More money
-I know Roanoke, I know more people around Roanoke
-Finally out on my own, in my own place, to decorate and do as I wish

Bad points to having own store in Roanoke:
-Leaving everything behind. All the great employees at my store that I know and trust and have fun with. My family. The horses and Ginji and Dudley and the everyone in this house.
-No more horse shows. No more training Phoenix
-Finally out on my own...can I really afford to live alone? Am I emotionally ready to be alone? To come home to an empty house and dwell on the fact that there is no one...even more so then I do now. To be cut off from everything and everyone I know. TO be alone.

I've already decided that I would leave Ginji here. I don't think he would de well in a city and I wouldn't be able to walk him and give him the care he needs. I wouldn't want to seperate him from Dudley and have him home alone all day. The cats would stay too. I wouldn't want to take the risk of taking them and havin them run away or get hit by a car or something.

Do I really want this? But if I turned it down would I ever get another chance? It is obvious that Winston will never be my store...and If I turn this down for selfish reasons then they may feel I don't deserve a second chance. I can't take that risk...and yet the more I think about it, the more terrified I become.

I'm over thinking this...I'm getting too worked up over nothing. There is still that chance that they will give the store to someone else. Then I got nervous about nothing. I just have to let things happen. What will be, will be.



Costumes I want to do someday (obviously can't do all, but I can dream can't I?)..in no particular order:

Cain from Trinity Blood
Subaru from Tsubasa
Kougaiji from Saiyuki reload
Georges from Esperanza
Gunter from kyou kara Maou
Yozak from Kyou Kara maou
Murata from Kyou Kara Maou
Dominic from Eureka 7
Killua from hunter X hunter
Souichirou From Tenjou Tenge
Hikaru from Hikaru no Go (high school uniform)
About six different versions of Fai
Ritsuka from Loveless
Suboshi from Fushigi Yuugi (artbook version)
Ken from Weiss Kruez
Tohma from Gravitation (red vest, black coat version)
Tohma from Gravitation (feather coat, remake)
Syoaran from Cardcaptor Sakura
Chris from Scrapped Princess (remake)
Jing from King of Bandits: Jing (remake)
Dearka from Gundam Seed Destiny (green uniform)
Cain from Godchild
Zelgadis from Slayers
Sora from Kingdom Hearts (Halloween Town version)
Eriol from Cardcaptor Sakura
Yue from Cardcaptor Sakura
Taikobo from Senkaiden Houshin Engi
Kyuzou from Samurai 7
Sena from Eyeshielf 21

Comments

[sabermonk.livejournal.com]

yea for Dominic and Kyuzou!!

that's all I had to say. ^_^

[stylized-wings.livejournal.com]

Just a note on the whole Roanoke thing...if it helps at all, you'd definitely be able to afford it. A one bedroom runs around $400-$500 dollars here (I was looking around a lot at one point). Just look around in the newspaper. And if you're worried about living alone, maybe see if you can find a roommate? Either someone you know, or I know there are a lot of people who rent out rooms in their houses and then you aren't coming home to an empty house. Just things to think about. But Roanoke is rediculously cheap to live in, so don't worry about that aspect. Good luck either way!

[gallion-dlareth.livejournal.com]

I agree with you - don't think too much about it now - what will be, will be. ^_^

Regardless of the decision you have to make in the future, just try to think what will make you happy - are you more concerned about your future, or now? Is more money a good enough reason to uproot yourself? Your own place? And all that other real-world-esque crap one has to think of.

I wouldn't worry about whether or not you'll be capable of doing - obviously you're a very capable person. Just think about whether you'll be satisfied. ^_^ A happy Tohma is the best Tohma (aside from a calculating Tohma, which is close behind). ^_~

[serafaina.livejournal.com]

Sssargon is cosplaying Yozak at katsucon this year, barring any costume fiascos. And maybe at other points in the future, as she's not a crazy cosplay fiend.

He's doing both "Ms. Biceps" outfit and the regular tunic one.

And Murata Ken hangs around/orders Yozak quite a bit. And Gunter doesn't but still! Both costumes would be fun! And
Murata would let you wear fun glasses!

You could cosplay together!