There are lots of different kinds of depression. There is the kind that happens because of certain situations and there's the kind that's chemical that you need medication for. I'm not going to say that you need to go out and get drugs but I agree that depression could explain a lot. The reason I can't ever wait tables again is because it made me so miserable. I started to hate everything and everyone. I'm really glad I got out when I did.
Tohma, why dont you get out of NC? Move somewhere where more of your friends are. I bet that would do a lot to help your mental state. It's much easier to be possitive when your surrounded by possitive people and while it sounds like your parents are trying to help they're trying to motivate you in a negative way and when you, or anyone, is feeling bad negativity only makes you feel more like crawling into a hole until everything goes away.
Making any big change is terrifying but you have tons of friends that would be more than happy to help you. That goes for everything from moving to just getting a new job. All you have to do is make the decision to change something about your life that will make you happier, even if it's a big scary change.
On a more selfish note, there are quite a few of us that would *love* it if you moved up to Richmond. We miss you and we don't get to see you often enough. I even know somewhere you could board your pony!
I hope there's something helpful in that long rant. *hugs* I'm in DC all weekend but you have my cell #. Call me and we can talk about fun cosplay stuff and horses!
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Date: 2008-05-16 06:40 am (UTC)Tohma, why dont you get out of NC? Move somewhere where more of your friends are. I bet that would do a lot to help your mental state. It's much easier to be possitive when your surrounded by possitive people and while it sounds like your parents are trying to help they're trying to motivate you in a negative way and when you, or anyone, is feeling bad negativity only makes you feel more like crawling into a hole until everything goes away.
Making any big change is terrifying but you have tons of friends that would be more than happy to help you. That goes for everything from moving to just getting a new job. All you have to do is make the decision to change something about your life that will make you happier, even if it's a big scary change.
On a more selfish note, there are quite a few of us that would *love* it if you moved up to Richmond. We miss you and we don't get to see you often enough. I even know somewhere you could board your pony!
I hope there's something helpful in that long rant. *hugs* I'm in DC all weekend but you have my cell #. Call me and we can talk about fun cosplay stuff and horses!